DOPE despite my Diagnosis
So I wanted to take time to congratulate myself for being so dope and really sticking to my guns and not getting discouraged or quitting. Last week was rough, this cold weather has really been kicking my butt.
I tried resting but the anxiety of my first photo shoot for Uniquely was finally about to take place and I wanted and needed everything to be perfect ( or at least how I envisioned ). So Friday I had to get cute! I got my nails, toes, eyebrows, and lashes done which took ALL the energy that I had saved. To add to it, Friday night, I changed my complete look as well as one of the models last minute because my mind never stops outfitting!
Saturday arrives and of course, it rains all day.
How can I have a shoot outside, if it's raining and windy? Not to mention the rain causes a major flare up. So, on top of already being exhausted, and in pain... the rain intensified that pain to the max. But, I couldn't stop. I had to make sure my vision was executed properly. I had to figure out how to mask the pain.
I felt gorgeous but I was cracking apart on the inside. Everything was amazing. Even though I had to move the shoot inside, it was everything I dreamed of.
The shoot tried to hold me down for a few a day, but I had no time for that. In a short few days, I would be debuting as a stylist, in a pretty big fashion.
The day of the show is here, and I'm exhausted. I already knew it was going to be a long day and it was going to take me out the game but it was worth the sacrifice. Before I left home I could barely get out of bed but again I had to force my body to just push through. I took 2 Motrin 800s and they did nothing for me. Literally, an hour into the fashion show prep I felt my body start shutting down. What do I do? How do I not let my pain display on my face? #QTNA.
I had to figure it out though. I had to pull myself together and let me dopeness shine through. Fast forward, the show was amazing. The designer was pleased.
My Lesson Learned:
In life, we have to make decisions and deal with the consequences later. After a dope few days, my body was tapped out! But, I had to remember - my dream is only as great as I make it. Fibro may slow me down, but I can't let it break me and I can't let my body win. Even when I feel like it's getting worst I remind myself you go through hell, before you get to heaven.